More often than not, the space between Point A and Point B is measured in miles, representing the distance between one physical location to another. But this "place"...it can also be metaphorical, relative to our individual state of being. Right now, I am living in that place between Point A and Point B. And as much as I like to think that I am a patient person, right about now, I'm feeling pretty darned impatient.
Through the eyes of an optimist, this state of limbo might be referred to as "the journey"; that portion of time in your life that requires the majority of the hard work be done. This blanket-journey can apply to various "random" moments in life, from wanting to lose weight and becoming physically fit, to paying off debt and saving (more) money. Whatever the case, there is a recognizable Start and Finish.
[POINT A: Pre-Run, 5:45am.
The moon's job is never done; chased away by the approaching rays of the Sun, she retires for the day, only to bring light to the night of lands in the distance.]
I am an impulsive creature; I have the tendency to start strong - with a tangible sense of enthusiasm and tenacity - and still be able to tap into reserves that summon a valiant Finish. But it's that space in-between that challenges me the most. I become distracted; I stray. I lose interest. Unknowingly, I set myself up for failure...and consequently, I become frustrated.
I am struggling right now, to reconcile these thoughts; I am in that state of limbo in so many areas of my life...and if I can be candid, it SUCKS. I find myself wishing there were a "fast-forward" button that might allow me to just skip over the hard stuff and get right to the prize.
[POINT B: Pre-Dinner, 7:00pm.
Tag-Team. The Sun is quick to continue her travel West, allowing the Moon to take over once again.]
But that would be too easy.
Right now, I am trying to be mindful of the fact that hard work is never wasted. Hard work builds character; it teaches patience, endurance and persistance. And while I might not necessarily be at the precise moment and place in my life that I imagine, there is light.
And where there is light...there is hope.
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I've been feeling a little "off" lately; bummed by my lack of patience, but motivated all the same. I have a list of goals that eagerly await the check-mark of completion, but I continually struggle with the acknowledgement of Where I Am as opposed to Where I Want to Be.
I suppose this might be a contributing factor as to why I spent the Easter weekend feeling more discouraged than renewed; I felt like I could have (and should have) done so much more to observe these days of significance. I expected more of myself, only to realize that I continue to fall short.
I am Here, but I want to be There.
As I re-read this post, I am finding it more to be a a stream-of-consciousness instead of a post with a definitive Point A and Point B. But perhaps that is the lesson, here. In my attempts to define the journey, I am instead reminded of that place in-between.
And clearly...for now, it's where I need to be.
Those photos are so beautiful! That sunset picture is breathtaking!
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Wow...we are a lot alike. I am in the in-between on more than one thing and I am definitely feeling frustrated...stilted. Things always come together, but I'm having a hard time seeing HOW that's going to happen right now.
ReplyDeleteHang in there!
I can completely relate to these thoughts and feelings. I read this quote earlier this week and wrote it down in my planner so that I would visit it each day; perhaps you will enjoy it too (after reading your interests I assume this is okay ;)...
ReplyDeleteGod often ignores our present level of completeness in favor of our ultimate future completeness...working out His perfection for you. -Oswald Chambers
thank you for sharing this. i so needed these thoughts this morning, to know that i am not the only one who feels this way.
ReplyDeletethe in-between can be so difficult, but i think often, when we look back, those are the seaons where we learn and grow the very most, even if we don't see it at the time.
here is the link to some lyrics that i found about the "time in between." it's been such an encouragement to me during the past few months.
http://www.francescamusic.com/tracks/time-in-between-lyrics
i hope you will find peace in between point a and point b, angie, and i hope you have a lovely thursday! <3 i look forward to reading future posts about when you finally get where you want to be. :)
Angie thank you SO much for you sweet comment, it's genuinely wonderful to hear such positive feedback!!
ReplyDeleteAnd best of luck on your journey. I do empathize, sometimes the "in-between" can be the hardest. That's usually when I surround myself with the people, and the things that make me the happiest. It seems to make the in-betweens a wee bit easier. xo veronika
It's so good to read that I'm not the only one with these thoughts/problems. Sometimes it feels like I'm the only one feeling a little lost, while everyone around me seems perfectly at ease.
ReplyDeleteBut I also guess it's a good thing that you (me, too) are so reflective and contemplative, because that shows that you're absolutely no flippant person.
Don't worry too much. :)
XO. And thanks for sharing these beautiful pics.
I love you no matter what point you're at...... Miss you so much my friend!!
ReplyDeleteehhh gorgeous! i feel that way a lot! there will be great moments and times in our lives that won't feel like this but for the most part everyone deals with it because it is LIFE and Life is HARD! Love you:)lifting u high xoxo
ReplyDeleteloved this, because yes, hard word is NEVER wasted. but I am so with you on the fast forward button, it would be nice to use at times.
ReplyDeletegorgeous pictures in this post too btw.
Oh my gosh, I completely feel you---the limbo land is not a fun place to be! But you are so right, if we just hang on and keep working, we'll get to Point B! :) Oh, and I love love love your brunch dress! So cute!
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http://tiffanyd22.blogspot.com
Wow, what a powerful post! I love that instead of focusing on the destination you can focus on the journey! And, I hope you don't mind, I quoted you in my blog today, your comment was just too good to pass up! Aloha!
ReplyDeleteOh the challenge of life, huh? Where we are and where we want to be and where we wish we had gone! It is a journey, and that is being optimistic, for sure. God's journey to draw us closer to Him, to enliven us, teach us, grow us...I will pray for you on this journey of life, and hope that contentment sets in.
ReplyDeletei don't mean to ignore what you wrote about the process and in-between-ness of it all, but i MUST comment on those pictures.
ReplyDeletei sighed out loud looking at the pair of sunsets with the mountains. it looks like you took them while driving or "in between points A & B." so much beauty on the journey... ;)
k
I totally get this - I'm somewhere in the middle too, right now. I can see where I want to get to but it seems so far away most days! Thank you for helping me remember to keep striving.
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