Is it just me, or is anybody else in disbelief that tomorrow is March 1st? Where does the time go? I know the old adage that time picks up speed as you get older, but crimeny, this is ridiculous. With that in mind, it's no wonder that this past weekend was a total blur; no sooner had we welcomed the weekend than we found ourselves getting ready for bed on Sunday night.
Friday started out poorly and my "funk" had me anticipating that the rest of the weekend would follow suit. Sparing you all the boring details, I'd had a really disappointing day at work, ended up staying late and came home after Phil, which is a total rarity. However, when I walked through the front door, I was welcomed with this (and yes, I always have a camera at the ready!):
I have the best husband. Phil knew I'd had a crap day at work, so he had the candles lit, a glass of wine waiting and music from our wedding crooning from the speakers. And as if this weren't enough, he took my purse and keys from me, twirled me around and asked me to dance. And we did. :) LOVE him. If all bad days ended like this, I'm cool with that.
It's peak whale season here, so Saturday was the Great Whale Count throughout the island. For the fun of it, we decided to do a little whale watching of our own and make a day trip out of it; we packed up my trusty, economical Honda and drove around to the West Side of the island, up to Honolua Bay:
(That's Molokai in the background)Seriously, friends. Get thee to Maui and come whale-watching with us. It's an amazing experience!
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We had hoped to drive all the way around the island, but by 1:00pm, I was famished and going a bit mental as a result, so we headed back down to Ka'anapali for lunch and then leisurely made our way back home upcountry.
Could I BE more annoying with the camera? Me thinks not.
Sunday was a lazy kind of day; we slept in until 8:30 (which is late for us) and lounged in bed drinking coffee, watching TV and playing around on our laptops. I finally rallied and got my butt in gear and headed to the gym for a good run and workout, which turned into Sob-Fest 2011. :( I ran my 3-miles and was halfway through my weights, when I saw him; an older guy who was the spitting image of my late brother, Tony. I was completely taken off guard, completely unprepared for this cruel trick my mind was playing on me. I had never seen him at the gym before, but when I laid eyes on him, it was all I could do not to walk over to him and wrap my arms around him. I kid you not. Everything about him just oozed Tony. His face, his height, his stature, his hands. I did three extra sets on the Hip Abduction machines just so that I could watch him (and I know how crazy-psycho this sounds, but cut me a little slack here). At that moment, I wanted to burst into tears; there was a brief window when I actually wondered if maybe, maybe my brother was still alive and this was all some really sick and twisted joke? But sanity surfaced...and with everything in me, I held myself back from walking over to him and throwing my arms around him.
Instead, I collected myself, went into the locker room and totally lost it. I called Phil, sobbing into the cell phone, my voice echo-ing throughout the locker room, while he consoled me as best as he could.
Death is so hard. It is haunting, the way it slinks around, undetected, only to spring itself upon you when you least expect it. And no matter how many years may pass from losing a loved one, the grief is always there. Waiting, quietly. Always ready to remind you that our lives are miniscule in the grand scheme of things.
Live, my friends. Live with reckless abandon.
The last photo I have of my older brother, Tony (and my nephew, Oakley). Miss you and love you, T.
Thanks for reading, friends.
Love & Aloha to all of you!
xoxo.
















Hi Angie, I love this post. I really admire how you live and enjoy life to the fullest while being such a strong individual. You are a true inspiration. Anyway, I REALLY love the whale photos! I wish I get the opportunity to whale watch in my lifetime and uhmm... have an amazing camera lens like that! Haha! Stay happy! xoxo
ReplyDeleteCheers!
UH-mazing pics of the whales! And your hubby is so sweet having the candles lit and being all romantic ♥!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you shared the info about your brother with the rest of the blog world. It's hard, but It's always helpful to vent/share things, especially with Phil, who is your #1 support!
Sounds like a good weekend none-the-less!
Happy Monday!!
Oh Angie...What a fantastic husband you have! He's definitely a keeper!
ReplyDeleteYour photos are breathtaking, thank you for sharing!
My heart aches for you and your brothers. I am lucky enough to have not known a death so close to me, and I admire you for being so brave and for seeming to keep it together! You're an amazing woman.
Have a good rest of the week, and take on March with your continued positivity!
Love,
Mal
Ah, Maui :) How beautiful. Thank you for sharing a bit of the islands in those pictures. I need some of that right now, we are still in full fledged winter here.
ReplyDeleteAnd your husband in a sweetie. You are so strong, it is a sign of strength to be vulnerable and open about your brother's death. I am sorry it hurts like it does. And I love that you tell us all to live to the fullest. Never hurts to throw in a reminder :) I hope you have a good week this week, and really?!? where did MArch come from??
We had some whale watching here on Kauai too! And I love Maui...my home church (I attend an extension on Kauai) is there too :) I'll be there in about 2 weeks!
ReplyDeleteGreat post!
Love from Kauai..
seriously. . .I want to come live in Maui too! at least for whaling season!
ReplyDeletehope this week goes a bit better for you!
Sweetest husband ever!!
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm coming to Maui for some beaches, sunshine, and whale watching.. you convinced me ;) Oh and I'm bunking at your place! :)
I am so truly sorry for your loss! Thank you for sharing with us... what a great reminder to love harder, and live life to the fullest!
Have a GREAT day :)
I love love love this post~ Your hubby seems so sweet! :) The pictures are amazing too! Always praying for you!
ReplyDeletei cannot believe how time flies...you live in such beauty and i love the pics you snap! haha you are too cute! death is a very hard thing to deal with! and like you said; no matter how many years go by it's just never easier or the same but i swear friend, with time you'll find more peace! love ya:) xo
ReplyDeleteSounds like your weekend started so wonderfully- I would LOVE to go whale watching, that sounds amazing! So sorry you had a hard Sunday, though...I can't even imagine. Sorry you had to go through that, but you are one strong woman!
ReplyDeleteI love coming to your blog! absolutely LOVE it! :) Your photos are SO wonderful! You have got a lovely hubby miss Angie! What a sweetheart! Love the photos, they are always so lovely! I'm adding your button to my site, FYI, so don't be surprised when you see it when you come visit. I'm sorry for you loss - loss is hard. Praying for you Lovely!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, I was thinking the SAME thing last night about time. I am convinced it has SO much to do with age. Is it pathetic that this occured to me while watching "The Bachelor" last night, thinking "Geez, it used to take for-ev-er to get to the final two girls, now I feel like the show just started and they're already picked." Yes that's pathetic. But still, it's crazy!
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine what that felt like at the gym. I am so blessed that I have not had to face a very tough death yet, but I know I eventually will. Thank you for being open and honest with your feelings.
Oh and you totally make me want to move to an island - every time I read your blog I'm like "this chic has it figured out!"
Have a great week!
Oh my gosh Ang...I don't know if I have told you the story about the guy that works out at the gym that looks soooo much like Brent! The first time I saw him I almost turned around and left the gym...I was completely caught off guard and was so emotional. I still see him a few times a week and it still makes my heart skip a beat. I get this weird sense of comfort though - it is hard for me to explain - when I see him.
ReplyDeleteAnyways, sounds like you had a fabulous weekend. And I want to come to Maui and whale watch with you!!!:)
xoxo
I can totally picture the roads in the pics :) My husband and I still laugh about our first trip there, driving along that road past Kapalua just to see where we ended up. We kept seeing the sign that said "blow horn" and I kept saying, oh there must be a blow horn somewhere...as if a blow horn was some kind of destination LOL! I figured out after like the third sign it was blow your horn LOL!!! Cracking up typing this :D
ReplyDeleteLovely pic of your brother...
xo
what a fabulous, sweet husband you have. and rightfully so--you, dear, are a class act. i love how you look at life with such fun and excitement. thank you for this post, and those amazing whale pics!
ReplyDeleteHey lovely,
ReplyDeleteI'm just catching up on your blog after being away for almost a month. I'm so sorry you had to bawl your eyes out at the gym...I can only imagine the pain of losing Tony being brought to the forefront again after seeing his "twin".
Phil is such a rockstar hubby and you deserve no less! He is equally blessed to have you. I love that he created a blissful atmosphere for you at home after your rough day. What a sweetie! BTW, how's his grill? :) So glad he wasn't more injured with that scary surf accident.
Make room for me on your couch next whale watching season because I'm comin' over! :) Amazing photos and video!
That had to be so hard...I can't imagine how that would feel to see someone look so similar...
ReplyDeleteOn a separate note...your hubby is so sweet!
Angie, you know how much I adore you. You can never take too many photos. I love the most how much your hubby enjoys photos as well. That's so important. I know that being someone who is obsessed with the camera :) I'm lucky Charlie likes it too! The candles, wine is breathtaking and gave my chills. I'm sorry to hear about your bad day/week and I'm glad that it got better. The photo of your brother is so sweet and I enjoy when you share the stories and photos.
ReplyDeleteI hope this makes you smile. You're on my right side for Blog of the week. I love you my friend and wish we were neighbors so we could venture aimlessly taking photos of everything!
xoxo
Katie
Hi Angie,
ReplyDeleteThis is my first time visiting your blog, but I am so glad I found it because I miss MAUI!And looking at you pictures from thi post just put me right back on hwy 30. I got married on Maui and my last visit was in Oct 2010, I hope to go back someday as it's a magical place.
Best regards to you, Karolina
PS major pluses for hubby- that evening must have been amazing.
Those whale pictures are amazing...I have always wanted to go whale watching!!! I have to say Maui is one of my favorite places to visit and I just must get back there soon! Such a lovely blog you have!
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Hi! Thanks for coming along my blog so early or, er... late for you! What great pictures of the whale! I got to see one once, from my house in Tenerife... but I didn't have such a complete equipment, so it was really far away :(
ReplyDeleteYou've got a new follower here!
I'm so glad that you have a sweet husband! :) And look at your fancy schmancy camera lens and those whale photos - gorgeous! Maui is so beautiful...
ReplyDeleteAlso I'm so sorry to hear about your sorrow. :( Hugs girl and thinking of you.
Wow, whale watching. Let me tell you, this is amazing. Oh how I would love to watch the whales! It amazes me in so many ways.
ReplyDeleteThank you for posting this.
Beautiful post Angie! I love love those whale photos. You capture the beauty of Hawaii!
ReplyDeleteHello Angie! I've just come across your blog via Love with Katie, and rather excited as I'm about to move out to Honolulu for 3 months to live with my girlfriend out there. Then she's moving over to the UK! We're planning on visiting Maui and your pictures have made me even more excited!
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hi angie!!!
ReplyDeletethose pictures are amazing. first and foremost.
second, thank you sooo much for your really sweet note on my blog. it really made my night. i love new blog friends and any friend of jenni's is a friend of mine :)
hawaii?! get outta town. can i come visit??
xo
bridget