I feel it again. It happens this time every year, after another birthday and the ritualistic reflection leaves me feeling particularly pensive about the past and its effect on my future---our future.
It is a process I go through every year; that elusive shift in perspective where I find myself surveying my life, sometimes critically, but still, always...searching.
This year was no different. I suppose it is only natural to feel slightly narcissistic on one's birthday, when, afterall, it is supposed to be the one day a year when it is "all about you". But I am finding that with each year that passes, these "birth" days have become less about wreckless celebration and more about introspection and curiosity and rumination and the incessant desire to just GROW. To lift my face towards the sun and God, to reach upwards with a sense of purpose and conviction that I feel deep in my heart.
I've been brewing a deeper post over the last few days but haven't really had the energy to sit down and bang it out. But I'm getting there. Tonight, The Hubs and I just needed some time to breathe. We are back from dinner and having just dropped the last of our visiting friends off at the airport to catch a flight back to San Francisco. It has been a crazy-hectic three weeks, and I am E-X-H-A-U-S-T-E-D.
So the post will have to wait.
happy birthday, bloggy friend.
ReplyDeleteGet caught up on some "me" time!!
Quick, before the holiday craziness comes on!
Hi Angie! I'm so glad you stumbled upon my blog, so I could in return find yours :) I hope you had a wonderful birthday! For each year does come too soon...we must enjoy & live life to the fullest. I look forward to reading more of your posts. Have a wonderful week hun!
ReplyDeleteI think it's normal to become more introspective on your birthday as you get older. I get narcissistic on mine too.
ReplyDeleteI love this post. My birthday is also approaching and I'm finding myself thinking about life so much more than I used to. Something about the cold dark weather and upcoming holidays have me reevaluating a whole heck of a lot. I'm glad that my post spoke to you. I was afraid to put it out there because it is a tough subject. Thanks for the encouragement. Hope you find peace.
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Nora
Hau'oli Hanau. I don't think I said it correctly, but you know.
ReplyDeleteI enjoy having company, but it is exhausthing. You end up feeling like a cook, an event planner a taxi driver and a hotel all in one. Given that they are from SF, I would have to go visit them too. Fair is fair.
Yah, I'm happy you found me ... and now I can follow you too!
ReplyDeleteFun to "meet" and read blogs from all over the world!
Thank you for your nice compliments. I can't wait to dig deeper into your blog too {time-wasting hobby, but so much fun!}.
Also, I LOVE your art. Do you have it online for purchase somewhere yet?
xoxo
gabe: thank you, bloggy friend! I'm about caught up on the "me" time...feeling remarkably refreshed and wanting to write...
ReplyDeleteAubrey: 'Totally agree about enjoying and living life to the fullest. I'm trying to remember that on a daily basis!
Nora: Hello there! Thanks so much for visiting me. I really enjoyed reading your latest post; you definitely put things in perspective for me. I love that in a good blog!
Susan: I know. ;) You said it, sister. While we love seeing family/friends, I'm so completely over the entertaining part. And the going-out part. And the spending-money part. (Does that make me sound like a wet blanket?!) I mean, I love our visitors, but ooooohhhh, I'm loving our quiet home once again!
Lisa: Time waster, I know...if I had a dollar for every hour I spent on the internet reading different blogs, I think my husband and I would be able to retire early! Thank you for your kind words about my art; I am working on a site for sales. I'll keep you posted.