It goes a little something like this:
You have all these ideas in your head about what you want your blog to be like: You want it to be raw. And organic. You want it to be a place of reflection and of positivity; a springboard where dreams and aspirations are born and catapulted into the universe. You want it to be a place of goodness, because there is comfort in returning to something that makes you feel good, no? You want your blog to be written in a voice that is none other than your own, because anything less would just be...sad. You want this blog to be authentic. And yes, while you're being honest, you admit to yourself that you also wouldn't mind this blog being pretty. And you certainly wouldn't mind knowing who - if anyone - is reading along. Ultimately, you envision this "place" to be a perfect reflection of YOU.
But then you start perusing what else is out there, in that vast, sea of blogs; you start reading. And subscribing. And following. And clicking. And linking over. And as much as you are inspired, you also want to be the one to inspire. But then you have those moments when you feel insecure, because the more "seasoned" blogs out there have clearly found their rhythm and their audience. And you're still learning.
But as intimidated as you might feel, you're also wise enough to recognize that this isn't some kind of competition; it isn't something that has any bearing on who you are...it isn't indicative of your value or your worth. You are simply blogging because you enjoy the act of writing. And taking pictures. And creating art. So you make a choice. And how liberating is it, when this leads you to making the conscious decision to just be YOU? To not try and fit a certain mold, or to deliver something that isn't "you"?
To me, that is authentic.
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And while on the topic of authenticity, I am reminded that every sunrise or sunset I have been blessed to witness is different every time. Each are unique and authentic in their own way. And there are the days when I'm holding my camera at justtherighttime and I am able to capture and make still an otherwise fleeting moment. These are the photos where the planets are aligned and I'm able to get it just right:
And to honor authenticity, I feel compelled to add that while I'm all for tweaking images in Photoshop, this particular photo is raw. And organic. And authentic. And untouched.
And it's not such a bad thing, is it?
:)

Wow! What a great post! I feel light you nailed it when it comes to how I feel about blogging sometimes! I think when I am feeling a little overwhelmed or envious, I will come back often to read this. Thanks!!
ReplyDeletewow untouched that is amazing!!! I do love a great photo!!! Good to have u follow i will be following back :)
ReplyDeleteamazing post ... definitely hit the nail on the head about blogging. and that sunset is breathtaking.
ReplyDeleteIf there's one trait I've always admired and appreciated in you, it's your authenticity. :) Love your latest entry and the photo is breathtaking!
ReplyDeleteHoly Cow! This is AMAZING. Gave me chills...said so many of the things I've thought and felt. I clearly saw raw...goodness...and, YOU.
ReplyDeleteKudos, dear Angie.
And, yes, so nice to meet you.
Angie you're an eloquent writer and yes, truly authentic! I'm glad your back to blogging, and I totally understand how you feel! I know you will find your feet as a blogger! It seems you are already well on your way! Xx
ReplyDeleteKerri - thanks so much for reading! It's nice to know that others can relate to my thoughts on blogging.
ReplyDeleteHeather - thank you!
Veryll - I know we've kind of talked about this via email, but thanks again for comisserating!
Cari - So happy to "see" you! Thank you for visiting me over here. :) 'Made my day!
cjs - Thank you for your kind words. It is nice to know that I'm not alone in these thoughts...it feels good to be "understood".
Kaili - Thank you so much for your encouragement! It's nice to be back in the blogging scene again; maybe this time it will stick!
I completely agree with everything! Beautiful picture!!! Maui makes it easy to leave pictures raw. Most beautiful place on earth!
ReplyDeleteSea of blogs couldn't be more perfect for everything out there! I think you are making a pretty good splash, haha, so corny :) I like that you choose this post for the blog link up. And I wanted to thank you for participating in the Storytellers Blog Hop!! I am really glad you did. Have a great Sunday!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you got your link in before the Story Tellers Linky party ended or I may not have found it! I absolutely second what you said! In the beginning I tried to be too fashionworld wise but realized it didn't sound like me. I'm a new follower!
ReplyDeleteJen Hemming and Hawing Again
I love this photo and this post. I feel like that sometimes. I just write and some posts I HAVE deleted b/c I think they are some reflection of a part of me that isn't truly there anymore :) PS: you should watermark that pic - it's too good!!!!!
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